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You know...people who think they're ready for "love.." and say all the right things...really piss me off. Because most of them don't mean it. And how do you take a single chance to figure out who does? Well it's easier to spot the liars. Liars...go n talk to other males or females while they are so-called "courting" you. Tye tell you what you want to hear...and then give you silent treatment..and say absolutly nothing..or well what they had to say was nothing anyway. Because ladies and gents..it's all a game. A mental chess if you will.
I haven't stated that I am ready for love, so me dating and talking to other people..is standard. I'm looking. I'm not ready to settle or even think about it. But I have so called "friends" that claim that they want to date me and give me everything I need...and here they are having late night conversations with ex's or other people they met online...or chatting with people on random date sites. They only want to give you everything b/c that fills this void in their lives.
So maybe that's what love is...a void filler. Well I'm sorry, I'm not filling someone's void right now.
I'm tired of these that think they're fantastic people..why can't people just be themselves anymore..why is this rat race..just crazy? I am myself, me caring about others...me caring about how I look...me caring about the opinions and mindless conversations of others, that's me. I know who I am. And it's really sad that not many people do anymore.
Maybe these people and I are from wrong sides of the tracks...seeing how I am different..and I take everything wrong. Maybe simply they don't know how to speak to me. It's like a different language these days. I don't want someone just like me..simply b/c they'd have to go through the things I did...but...that's my soulmate. I am ready to find them.
As for the rest..it's not all my fault.
I'm just so sick of these lines..and thoughts that mean nothing..and the right intentions coming from the wrong person. Maybe I'm too picky...maybe it is me. Maybe my sense of love at first sight is wrong, but they are my standards...more than that..they're my beliefs...and no one can take that away from me. Call me stupid..crazy...for once, I don't care. This is me...and that's all there is to it.
-Anty Current Mood: frustrated